Keep It Simple

I’ve been thinking a lot lately. I don’t know why I’ve been doing this but its been becoming a habit. I’m starting to realize that I’ve really been hiding behind a smile. I’ve been fronting a smile for so long that I just got used to it. So much shit is going on right now. So many things are happening at once. And to tell you the truth I don’t really know what to do anymore. I have my friends and my family, but I don’t really think I can talk to them. Its really hard for me to open up to people. I’ve done a lot of stupid shit. I fucked up, and I know. People say that I can talk to them about anything. But really thats the thing, I can’t. I hear about people backstabbing others and I’ve had friends that have been backstabbed, and yeah I know how that feels. I know people are gonna read this thinking I’m just a bitch and that I really need to pick myself up. I’m tired of people judging other people and Me. Sometimes I can’t even think for myself. I guess I’m just ventting on this, but man, it really hurts, and I don’t know what to do. :(